In Terms of my Photo Work

So in regards to what i've been doing with my photography for seminar. I've recently did a shoot in the studio of myself. I was just exploring shooting myself and figuring out what I was comfortable with because knowing what I was comfortable with helps in understanding who I am. Below is my favorite photograph from the shoot. I feel that this photo shows the part of me that is comfortable with who I am. I beginning to realize that I am accepting myself for who I am and becoming comfortable in my own skin. This is a girl that is accepting of her natural beauty and not afraid to show it.

Another thing I had been experimenting with while I was down in Maryland was shooting landscape out the window of the car while on route to where ever we were headed. I choose to not let the driver pull over the car because I wanted to see what I could shoot while in motion, which in turn gave me a view of Maryland that I could only get in that way as if I was trying to get to know the area and but didn't have time to stop. I watched the landscape for composition as we drove and shot when I saw something of interest taking many photos of the same thing hoping for a good shot. 

I was very interested in shooting the landscape down in Maryland. There is so much beauty to be captured and I look forward to being able to capture more of it. I look forward to being able to call this place my home in June. I shot the landscapes in terms of thinking about my senior seminar project because I have mostly been doing work in terms of emotions or specifics to me. I wanted to be able to capture the environment in which my life is taking place. These landscapes are part of me, they are part of what my life is.

Paintings thus far

So I've been working on a couple of paintings. Each of these paintings concerning a different part of who I am. The first one deals with my struggle of figuring out who I am and the confusion that comes with it. The red one is a painting i am doing that deals with me accepting the feminine part of me and this beauty that I have. Its all about beauty. Its me accepting my body as it is and being okay with it. It's me accepting that I am beautiful and knowing that I am.

The one that has two panels to create one piece started out as a completely different piece. It had a much more lighter, softer feel about it and just wasn't getting a crossed what i wanted to have come across. Then again I suppose I didn't really know what I wanted from the piece at first and that was the problem i was doing this one thing and my intuition was wanting me to do something else. The painting had just looked wrong to me so i forgot about ruining the piece, figured out what i wanted to come across in it, and just went at it. I decided that I  wanted the piece to have this sexual, kinkiness to it. These panels i am using to express a part of me that no one really knows about. A side that no one gets to see ever except when it tends to come out during my work and of course my significant other gets to see this. But even more so with him because no one but him, not any other guy, knows this part of me.  

To explain this other painting I have to tell you that I have recently decided to go to culinary school. How I came about the decision of needing to go was while I was sitting in my Senior Seminar class we had a visiting artist in talking to us about what happens after we get out of school. This then made me wonder why on earth I didn't go to culinary school instead. I have been wondering this for the four years i've been at this school. So with the support of people I looked into schools and have found one to go to. I have now felt the need to explore this part of me and explore baking through my art especially since i've been struggling with the idea of being here any more, because i want nothing more then to run off to Maryland and go to culinary school. In this one piece I used flour to create this. I plan to explore more over my time here mixing baking with art. Exploring making editable art as well as making art that appears to be editable though none of it is. I think this is a way for me to deal with my struggle of wanting to be in culinary school now as well as getting me through my senior year.